falling in to the abyss

I have done it again with all the predictability I have come to expect of my self. I bought pot for Jared. Split it with him. Bought pot again and then again. So I am now nearing the end of a 3/4 of an ounce of pot,  smoking since Friday last. it has been seven days of wake and bake and I am putting on weight because I am eating a lot.Not present at all and missing work for three days. Just popping in and doing the least required and then disappearing home to invisibility. Absence of presence.