It has been three weeks since my shoulder surgery. Doing pretty well the sling is so annoying and frustrates every second every day which causes stress that hurts no fun at all. It has slowed me down for sure and the mere fact that I'm using my non-dominant hand for most everything I really think is difficult For my brain. So when I say it Has slowed the down it's Made me hesitant. About the only thing that can calm me down Is smoking pot, It makes The situation Tolerable. Oh my God this talk to text is making me crazy I try to speak distinctly and slowly and I still get some type's TYPOS.
It has also brought me closer to Kate there's no denying that..she spent 10 days with me starting the day before surgery went home and then came back and spent another three days with me this past weekend. Jane came with her both times, Giving me an opportunity to get to know Jane better, and for us to get closer. I really think the world of Jane, she's a remarkable young woman.
I still worry a great deal about Kate and must keep reminding myself that there have been significant changes in her personality over the last years, positive changes. She has matured. And there have been many achievements such as she has quit smoking and sh e and Jane have purchased a home. I am very proud of her and there have been significant achievements In her career as well.
I also think that Kate is breaking through some of her PTSD. She decided, just this week, to seek medication and counseling for her mental health. That's so hard for all of us, but I think that this time she will follow through.
Her recent constant presence in my life, has made it crystal clear to me, how much time I spend alone. After her departures the house seemed incredibly hollow and I missed them very much, so reentry is difficult.
I'm following all the rules for the shoulder surgery follow-up, now I refocus On work. Saying I'm behind Is an understatement. And I also have to focus on Figuring out how to pay off fine Renew a drivers license before the end of October. All of that is Looming over my Head.
sigh
