Food writer

I am taking my diabetes med. I have a history of doing it and not doing it. Right now I am doing it.  Today I start the practice of writing down everything I eat.  This feels like a burden, a pain in the ass, something I shouldn't have to do. It is a sign I am not normal. Normal people eat. Abnormal people eat and then have to write it down so they don't eat too much. 

Another way to look at this could be

I want awareness and with pleasure for what I am eating.  I will become a food writer, and write about food. I want to stop eating to calm down or to go to sleep, or to feel differently. I want to be aware that I am eating, and what and when. I am writing it all down, every day as a method to help make food choices conscious. This is a positive step for me. This is a good way for me to take care of myself. To be kinder to myself.