went to doc tuesday
clothes feel looser lost one pound feels like 4 pounds
so i hate the weight scale
stupid weight scale
u can try not to let the numbers rule you
but somehow in the end they do
then yesterday my test results came back and my sugars are higher then last month
am i loosing this battle?
i swear i swear
i exercised and ate less
i swear no chips or candy or sweets or ice cream
i swear more protein and less sugar
shut the front door and wtf
ok so she told me this news by email yesterday
and i immediately
within seconds broke my fast
ate cookies on the free counter in the kitchen
that was old behavior and i was pissed at myself
so if you want something you have never had before you have to be willing to do something you have never done before
what am i willing to do
yet to be seen
have to up ..really increase my efforts to get the results i want
saw pics of myself
holy gawd i look awful
just awful
body shame
absolutely
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