Drunk and stoned on a Thursday night. Wish it was the weekend already and I got in through my workday that’s coming up tomorrow Friday.
I’m not doing well. I wake up try to get to the bathroom before I P on myself, can I make coffee while I wait for the coffee I roll a joint then I try to find my stories on Hulu, and then I drink my coffee and smoke my joint while my black cat pays attention to me momentarily. That’s the start of every day now.
I’m not doing well. I wake up try to get to the bathroom before I P on myself, can I make coffee while I wait for the coffee I roll a joint then I try to find my stories on Hulu, and then I drink my coffee and smoke my joint while my black cat pays attention to me momentarily. That’s the start of every day now.
I watch a lotOf television mostly crime shows well and family stories. I watch a lot of British crime stories and British television because there’s less sexualization of women and not every episode starts with a camera shot of a naked bloody woman on the floor as an opening establishment shot. I’m so sick of that.
Of television mostly crime shows well and family stories. I watch a lot of British crime stories and British television because there’s less sexualization of women and not every episode starts with a camera shot of a naked bloody woman on the floor as an opening establishment shot. I’m so sick of that.
Kate seems to be doing better she had a meltdown a couple of weeks ago Jane took the kids to Eric and then she went to her mothers a lot of drama. Kate pushed me away so I stayed away. And actually I had two weeks of quiet and calm and no traumatizing phone calls asking me to save her.No there was most definitely a feeling of relief during that time.
Give me time to think. I had breathing space. It was very nice. I’m trying not to feel guilty about it but it was a relief not to have to deal with Kate’s trauma responses to her life.
I am really having a hard time. I am heavily relying on sugar fat salt marijuana and white wine. I’m not eating healthy I eat cheesecake almost every day. I eat tater tots and waffle fries that I cook in the toaster oven and eat with lots of catch-up. I’ve put on a lot of weight. I don’t feel good. And it seems like I’m taking a slow suicide to death.
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