positive

I am staying pretty positive. rehearsals are going well. I feel good about the show. I have been having fun working with folks. I want to build a routine that I stick to.

The first habit I wish to break is tv binging. It's too much time sitting, and always first thing.  and it is a number presence. And then I am playing solitaire on my phone while I binge tv on weekly regulars and my series on hbONOW,  pbs, amazon prime, hulu, and the next thing that comes along.

I think it should be
awake
shower
tea
take meds
self care
writing
eating
now i could think about adding a workout here every morning

I want to sustain my dreams through my proven capacity for change
health
live with my passions
return to theater work

all the times i have shown my capacity for/to change
all the times I walked through it before
went to Grier
moved into the city
single mother who worked full time
reinventions with every new job
came out as feminist
came out as incest survivior
came out as rape survivor
came out as an activist
joined Ujima
went to college, worked, parented
came out as a director Hallwalls, DDD, and HAG
came out of the closet
came out as a witch
moved away from m y hometown
moved away Detroit/MOSAIC
became vulnerable
became wiser

now

want change