steps forward

I renewed my gym membership which I had allowed to lapse. My goal is to get there 3 x a week. I have been once so far. My wellness, my fitness is poor. It was very revealing to me to really know how far I have fallen.  Wow. But I know how to do this. I know how to slowly build my fitness back up to where it was or maybe beyond.

I have also returned to work, and left the cocoon I was hiding in since the holidays.  There is an energy being around people. Sometimes I shy from it, but mostly I am energized by the connection and presence of others.

Was home last weekend and I wish I could just make up my damn mind about where I want to be. Here or there. I think there might be a part of me that likes having an escape route, each to the other. Maybe it is what I need.

From Lynn Breedlove
your mission should you choose to accept it today is:
1. say/do one positive thing.
2. even if it could use improvement.
3. encourage your people.
4. be good enough.
5. let something enrich your life.
6. lift someone up.
7. applaud someone without reservation.
8. avoid the alluring implication that you are morally superior.
9. that you are beyond reproach.
10. that you deserve/don't deserve more.
11. hope.
12. commit.
13. with every no, bring in three possibilities for which you will fight.

And for me this is next to work on.

THE AUDRE LORDE QUESTIONNAIRE TO ONESELF

oaluz:

1. What are the words you do not have yet? [Or, “for what do you not have words, yet?”]
2. What do you need to say? [List as many things as necessary]
3. What are the tyrannies you swallow day by day and attempt to make your own, until you will sicken and die of them, still in silence?  [List as many as necessary today. Then write a new list tomorrow. And the day after. ]
4. If we have been socialized to respect fear more than our own need for language, ask yourself: “What’s the worst that could happen to me if I tell this truth?” [So, answer this today. And everyday.]