The unprecedented times continue. No one knows what is really next or what it will look like or feel like. It is unknown and so it is possible that is making my life feel pressure to be more intentional. But I am not sure that I am. I am listening to more Brene Brown. Playing less solitaire on my phone. Petting the cat more.
I have always believed that my story my truth was too ugly to be said aloud. I have always believed the world will stop loving me and never ever love me again if everyone knew.
And discerning the truth of my life has always been important for me to discern and to understand on some deeper level.
I continue to believe myself unworthy of forgiveness, understanding and unconditional love of myself. I never feel safe, not really. Advancing age adds to those feelings of not being safe.
This free time I have now-free to explore-free to examine-to begin new habits, I need to re-calibrate. Fresh point of reference. For too long my point of reference has been being the victim. Shame, and anger, but mostly shame. Feeling outside the norm. I need a new frame of reference.
How do you find, is it find? How do you find a new frame of reference? DO you just choose a new one like ordering lunch off a menu or is it more of an obvious life choice.
Fresh as in new, as in not one I've had before. Fresher than springtime it is...
Definition of recalibrate
: to calibrate (something) again… these systems gradually drift off course so that the navigator periodically needs a fresh point of reference to recalibrate the navigation system.— Stefi WeisburdThe problem is that eating more doesn't sate us; we merely recalibrate how much we think we need.— Nando Pelusi
Definition of point of reference
Definition of point of reference
: something that is used to judge or understand something else
something that is used to judge or understand something else. i use my values to judge others. values i learned from my parents. values I learned from teachers that I admired and believed in. values i learned in novels by steinbeck and betty smith and later eileen myles' poems and stories or in toshi's music.
all the many and varied self help strategies such as cognitive therapy, im ok your ok, tarot, horoscopes, psychics, transcental Parent Adult Child, massage therapy, crystals, wiccan practice in a coven, yoga, tai chi, labyrynth walking, meditation, prayer beads, altar, day of the dead practice, the artists way, writing workshops, self defense workshops,
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