And again

I have started over. I have started over a hundred times. Let me count the diets; Weight Watchers, Atkins, the one over eaters anonymous meeting,  South Beach, You on a Diet, French Women are Not Fat diet, Optifast and another version of Optifast on which I really enjoyed not having to make ANY decisions about food, it was very liberating that liquid diet. I have also paid for many gym memberships, and there are always more payments than visits.  Countless diet books and recipe books but I remain fat fat fat.

But wait. I am here today to tell myself good job for starting over and instead I go back and list the failures. That can't be right. But I keep trying. Maybe that is how I should look at that list. Not as a series of failures but a non-stop attempt to do right for me.

Yesterday I rode the exercise bike. My first steps into the Jack Chellem Food-Mood Solution have been taken. My sugar level is coming down. I have been making better food choices for about a week, and am taking supplements. 

My father was a very healthy man who lived to be 91 years old. He ate a healthy diet, drank spring water, stayed away from white bread, read Adele Davis' books, and took a lot of supplements. Brewer's Yeast and lecithin every morning first thing. When he was still alive he would send me vitamins for most of my adult life. I know from his example that it is way to live healthier and longer. I will use that as encouragement to keep doing this for my health for my life.

I have started over.