I am fighting with myself today. I want to call W.... and get some herb. Go sit with her and get high. Maybe eat some bad Chinese food. Listen to music, work on Kate's memory box. I don't want to smoke all of it if I buy. That is what I always say. Only going to smoke some and then give the rest to M......Often I smoke it all. And that causes me to binge eat. It is a viscous cycle.
My eating is healthier.
I rode the exercise bike 3 x this week.
I have written down my food intake every day sine 1/30/2009
I feel better.
So why am I jonesin?
I think I want to reward myself for a week of good work. I am thinking I deserve it. I have earned it. I am thinking that if I want it I should be able to have it. That sounds like a little kid. SO is it my little kid that wants to get high?
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