Saw my doc Tuesday. Did not loose any weight. Very disappointing considering I am really back to working out. I feel good about being back up to 90% on my strength training and back up to 30 mins in the pool swimming laps. But I weigh the same. Bummer. Dammit. I have been the same weight for a long time now just floating above 200 lbs. I really want to get below 200 before my bday at the end of October. So I am writing everything down in my food diary and exercising 6 days a week. Wyckoff is thinking that my lack of sleep is hurting my weight loss so she talked to me at length about sleep hygiene and using melatonin. Also lowered my insulin. Putting me on a pill and hoping get me off insulin that also might be the reason I am just maintaining.
I will buckle down and put more effort to make it happen. Won't be discouraged. won't sabotage myself with bad behaviors or bad choices. I have not smoked pot since July 5. That is a terrific achievement and I feel good about it. I have also finally started planning my upcoming bday party at home in Buffalo. I am taking a week off in October and going home to celebrate with family and friends. Do not know if Maggie will come or not. Hope she does. But I have my doubts. That aside I talked to Cyd yesterday about a crone ceremony, and although Kate has been trying to find me a space I reached out to Rawah and she is helping me too. Fun part is that Sarah and Trish and I are staying in a suite at the Hotel Lafayette. I have so many fond happy memories of that place from when I was a little girl. My dad had union contract negotiations there. I would tag along, one of the many things I did with my dad, and I knew every inch of that hotel...so I return for my 60th. I am still struggling with turning 60...but working through it...and trying to accept it with grace and compassion.
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