that time of year when the season changes

thats whats happening now. summer ending, fall arriving. the air and light is different too. school year has started and kids are back in school as are the cheese buses. the energy of autumn is here. its a different hustle on the street. people pick up the pace of their walk.

true to my own rituals i have been reorganizing my space and possessions. shedding what i no longer need and rearranging the furniture. ive replaced the shower curtain liner and relocated the litter box.

made a decision. listening to dalton in a way that i hear her.
when she makes a statement that i want to discount. i will resist that urge, and instead accept what doc has said. accept what i wish to reject.

change

vulnerable. practice vulnerability every day

change

shame. let go of it. don't let the need to understand it block the letting go of it.

i always feel good during the autumn months. i feel more possibility for change.

recovery
im in recovery from trauma
i have been for the greater part of my life

i have accomplished many things in spite of and because of this state of being
doc asked for a list of accomplishments

there are two lists
one of personal achievement
one is social change

social change
ujima theatre company
era extension campaign
drama workshops at correctional facility-convicted rapists
writing workshop womens correctional facility
training and presentations on sexual assault/date rape/increased prosecution rate
acting workshops/classes for lesbians1994-95
published yalla bitch
founded lesbian theatre company 1994
founded dyke march bflo 2001
lesbian health care project
dykes do drag artistic director and executive producer

unpaid fundraiser for MOMMA, day care, ERA, Casting Hall, Ujima, Everywoman Opportunity Center, Bflo Pride, Dyke March, HAG,  Bflo Lesbian Health Care Project,Simple Gifts, Earth's Daughters, Benedict House, Just Buffalo Literary Center, NOW Buffalo Chapter, Erie County Citizens Committee Against Rape and Sexual Assault, high school yearbook, PEAR Kenya, Michigan Marriage Challenge

sat on the board NOW Bflo, Erie Co Citizens Com Against rape and sexual assault, Buffalo Pride, HAG Theatre, PEAR Kenya, AFP Detroit, A2 Network

paid fundraiser Hallwalls, Ujima, CEPA, Casting Hall SUCB, Menorah Campus, Arts Council of Bflo and Erie Co, HRWC, El Museo, Mosaic Youth Theatre of Detroit

personal achiewelfare

Sought help
finished college while on welfare
i see people and things others miss, because i am alert
highly perceptive bullshit detector
sensitive and kind
motivated activist
grateful to ancestors
artist
mother
friend
capable of more
bear for hard work
artistic collaborations with ron ehmke, trish kerle, alexis de veaux, lorna hill, jimmie gilliam, sarah norat phillips, peggy shaw, tatiana de le tierra, madeline davis
presented mostly queer artists ron ehmke, holly hughes, Betty, Kate Clinton, lea delaria, bitch, toshi, david sedaris, patty lupone, dorothy alison, jacquelyn woodson, sister spit, split britches, peggy shaw and lois weaver.