good day

Made progress on various frontiers today work and home.
Trying to buy a desk. Might have actually found one. Maybe. Smile
Did some work tasks. Working on a Sat. but the important part is that I got some work done that I wanted to et done.Treated myself to a spa treatment.

But yesterday ...yesterday ...was a very special day.

Yesterday I stepped back, took deep breaths, and listened to others. Trusted others and allowed myself to be vulnerable with Robby, who wanted to make sure I was ok, well more than ok, as did Suma. Good friends.Yesterday I learned about myself, allowed myself to hear new information, hear others feelings and thoughts without feeling guilty or bad....and I survived....nothing bad happened.

I feel pretty good.

 I had an episode. A traffic guard on road construction charged my car with his sign because I made a left turn. One traffic guard told me to go and another charged my car when I made the turn. I pulled over jumped out of the car and got into a yelling match with him. Then I thought I lost my wallet and endured ten minuets of erratic panic behavior because I could nt find my wallet. I know I could nt find my wallet because I was in a panic. I found my wallet and recognized what had just transpired. Immediately I recognized it. Got present again. Stayed present. AN episode processed in minutes.

Minutes
Stayed present.