binge

I am binging my way back to obesity.

And I want to go in reverse from where I am today and go forward healthy which is how I feel better and take care of me. I just threw out all my pot. A mini dramatic moment. Never done that before. I always smoke to the last leaf. Going to work not stoned. Good. I think. Get my sugars back under control and my eating. I believe that I can do this. I can do this. And I only do it when I am not using pot. I want to stop using pot. Forever. I see myself at 60 not using anymore. But sober and present willingly and being happy.

Here I go again. Cats by my side. Kate on my side. Good job. Good friends. Great memories. And I keep learning. I keep making personal best progress. With every year I think I do experience personal growth and I keep making changes based on that new knowledge.