I finally determined why I have no memory of the second carpal tunnel surgery, and why I was so very chatty and could not sleep at all.. It was a different anesthesia. Maybe because this surgery was simpler. Wow. I am going to address this on my follow up visit.
No pot. Wendy has been over twice but no smoking. good job Margaret. I wet the bed last night. oh the joys of aging.
I am making efforts to be kinder to myself and be more present. Eating better, but have not regained my momentum on exercising.
Going to try and really do my work, and stop phoning it in. I have been delaying and avoiding my work because I am bored and I feel bad about that. This is a good job in so many ways but I feel little joy.
I miss many parts of my old life and long for the joy and excitement I once experienced with HAG or at Hallwalls. Those were the jbs I loved. The ones I did for me.
I should write the autobiography. Might help me gain compassion and understanding and grace. I feel grace now when connecting with Crash and Jump and I feel it with Kate. My beautiful daughter Kate.
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